Family Death

It seems the delirious minds try to assert themselves the most

Like the way dying car engines work herder to stay alive

Inevitably they die just like her feeble mind will

Right now I can't say if I would be sad about that 

Or if my innards would turn 

In the same manner as my head

Away from the scene

Pushing broken wheels only works for so long

As the spokes pierce the ground 

Leaving a trail of spite

And the splinters await innocent feet to prick

But my children will not know her 

They will not know her bleak existence

Nor will I

Not after another day of giving up

All a child wants is to be craved

In the same manner plants demand light

Unfortunately a dismal existence has been mine

Void of emotional support

Lacking in the very acknowledgment of my presence 

And the only cravings in my parents bedroom

Is wealth and weight loss

Scales become useless to eyes trained for trimming

And crying voices from the kitchen 

Take a back seat to the hands creating new belt holes

There is a family somewhere dying to become known

And there is a family somewhere having dinner 

Feasting on laughter 

There is a family somewhere surviving on each other's smiles

That family is simply not here 

Nor will it ever be